A letter to my dead son

My son.  I'm going to start a blog here so I stop filling your facebook with my ramblings.  It has been 130 days since you died.  Some days I think I'm going to be okay, and other days (most of them) I am in anguish.  



I know I'm talking to you in all kinds of crazy formats, at the cemetery, on the bench in front of the house, at my desk at work, and now here too.  I just need to feel you around me, to keep you close.  

I don't have my thoughts together tonight so this is going to be super short, but expect I'll be talking to you here a lot.  You are, you were, a good man and I'm so sorry I failed you in so many ways.  You deserved a better mother.  I love you always.  Mommy.

Location: Texas, USA

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